Sunday, April 19, 2009

I'm losing it....

My little Austin has just about done me in. I'm sure you have heard me whine at some point or another about how busy and messy and naughty and defiant and whatever else he is doing for that day. The last few months I have just kept in my mind this stage will pass. I remember Tyson being somewhat as busy (not near as bad as Austin though) and now he is 11 and is a joy. This trial will pass....that is if I am still alive.
I took Austin to the Pediatrician a few weeks ago and reviewed his behaviors and my concerns especially since we already have a son with ADHD. He sat there and watched him go from one corner of the room to the next like a caged animal. He knew what I was saying. After I spilled my guts I felt horrible. I love Austin!! He is a sweet, loving, precious little boy!! I started to cry and I told the doctor that I really do love him but I am struggling right now. He was sweet and gave me a hug (a little awkward but very kind). He set us up with a pediatrics psychatrist in SLC to see what we can do. Our appt isn't until the end of June but I am excited to get this going. I have been trying some herbal supplements the last few days...not much change but I am still hopeful.
I think yesterday was my breaking point. The little pill knows how to get out of his crib!! I was sick. Somehow he climbs out, without getting hurt, and plays with his toys. I felt like I was losing all of my freedome. When he is in his crib, I know he is safe and I can relax. I layed him down for a nap today and it took me about an hour to get him to sleep. I was so frustrated by the time he was asleep. I can't do this everyday. I went to Walmart today (I know...I broke the Sabbath) and bought a basic crib. Shane put it up tonight and so far so good. He hasn't escaped yet. Oh I pray he will stay in this crib until we get him figured out or I can reason with him.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Remember it takes about a month for herbal supplements to work. Don't give up. I will be glad to take him for a hour when you need a little time alone. Love ya, Mom

Olivia Singleton said...

Happy birthday baby Austin! May you learn to give your mom a little break...

Valena said...

I've totally been there!!!!! I'm so sorry that you have to go through this. Which psychiatrist are you seeing in SLC? We've got a pretty good one for our daughter, and they might be able to see you sooner. If you're interested, email me - valenakiz@gmail.com